perhaps

a long dream

I have lost count reading ’ the little prince’ book.I did again last night on a small fragment on the departure of little prince.Somehow i just don’t get the ending still.Why he had to leave ?

‘“In one of the stars I shall be living. In one of them I shall be laughing. And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night … You,Only you will have stars that can laugh!”

To the narrator and little prince,it was the star.To me,whenever i see Carla Lily,Melon drink,dark framed glasses,hear similar songs and all the relevant would makes me think of him.Finding myself giving a little smile as i imagine seeing ‘his’ on mind.

Yes,this is the kind of happiness he gives to me.

I dreamed of him on the same night which was a long eventful kind.For the past 2 days i had tried to focus more on self developing only failing in moment of silence.It seems like whenever i’m resting,my brain starts to think of him naturally.Haven’t i tried hard enough not to do so? I always thought i did but it ended up the same.

Perhaps i haven’t let go the things that i should.Pictures,news of any kind related will triggers back the emotions i faced on that day.Not entirely in a condemning way,however this memories somewhat urging me to finalize a decision.A decision i couldn’t commit to,at the moment…