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Feeling unwell.

I thought of writing this down before forgetting everything.Trying to relax and be less of a perfectionist or else i wouldn’t be able to finish this.I’ll type whatever comes out first from mind…so here we go..

4th August 2010

My very first time on plane.First time traveling abroad all alone by myself.I made an impulsive decision just about  2 months from the stated date which is to meet Shin Hyesung.I ‘called’ for him. I read that past entry again to find self speechless in amaze.Just in 2 months time which is consider not a too long span nor a short one.Just good enough to make a change.

My dream and calling really came true.

That night,i arrived really late at BKK airport and met R for the very first time.Staying overnight at R’s friend’s apartment as planned months ago.I couldn’t rest my weary eyes at unfamiliar place though.Had to force myself to sleep.

5th August 2010

I woke up really early despite only having less than 4 hours of sleep.R and I touring around the busy heart of Bkk after checked in the hotel.She was really a great tour guide and good sister.

By around dinner time,we went to meet K and friend.I was told that we are going welcome Hyesung at the airport.That night,traffic was awful and the road was wet by rain.R was holding her banquet of flower with a bright smile on face.I can tell she was really anxious already.

Reached there around 9pm maybe? K met up with other thai fans.They suggested to have dinner nearby but i lost my appetite from lack of sleeping and exhaustion.I got myself a sand which.Managed to take just about 4 bites ? and then R got a call from her SG friend,E.We hurriedly looking for way to find her but unfortunately all excess routes to the arrival hall were closed.Must be because of MR VIP,i thought.

First Luck*

I spotted an escalator just right in front of the shop where we had dinner.We should have noticed that earlier to save us from all the tiresome running.R went up to get her foods and asked if i wanted to come along or stay with E. I choose to stay*

E talked about her first meeting with Hyesung.Amazed by her words and i anticipated of my own too.I asked myself of that question again.What would i feel when i see him ?

I couldn’t be bothered to check with the time anymore.With empty stomach,i waited with the girls ( E,T,N & A) over another side of arrival gate hall.E suggested the girls to wait for Hyesung from the main entrance as he would definitely passed by.

Second luck?*

All of them were positioning in front where else E stayed with the luggages pushcart,almost nearby the Airport gate exist.I choose to stay* with her again despite knowing that everyone was in the mode of queuing up to see him FIRST.

This time,my heart beat like it never felt so alive before.

Later,i saw MR KIM moved quickly toward the arrival gate.I heard from the girls later on that he bowed to a figure.I couldn’t feel myself already at that moment as i knew Hyesung had finally arrived.All i heard was high pitch screaming and a sea of heads.Eagerly poking out from side to side to catch a glimpse of him but he moved way too quickly for my eyes.

Finally……

That man with what i thought to be wearing a spider web T shirt,dressed in complete  handsome manner along with a cap and sunglasses.He is now walking towards my direction.Unknowingly tears start to flow down my cheeks.Palm on chest to calm down the heartbeat,another covering the trembling lips.

I must have gotten really shock upon seeing him.Completely in empty state.

As he waved to fans on the second floor ,his face was directly facing me so i really had a good look at him.Is he a real person? i asked myself this first thing.

Unbelievable luck.